I am thinking that my walk in recent days has been about cultivating a deeper root in both of these traits. I have certainly not arrived but sense that I AM making progress in both areas. I have been so outwardly passive in the past, that it led to being a doormat. Once I found my voice again, perhaps I was so vocal that I needed to draw upon finding a place "in the middle" as India Arie sings. Circumstances have certainly dictated that I find that place and the time it has taken has required patience. In order to keep my inner peace I have had to nurture patience and gratitude. Somewhere in the process trust has found its way into the mix.
Perspective is an interesting element and a clarifying one as well. If one chooses to live in peace, then one must come to terms with things that can not be controlled whether it regards the past or the future. And peace is about being calm in the present moment. For every calm moment, I am grateful. For every quiet revelation, I am grateful. In the moments of struggle, I am quicker to recognize my tendency to fret and obsess and able to pull back and respond before I over react. I have not perfected this one, but I am making progress. I must be patient with myself. Firmer, simpler, quieter, and warmer is an old mantra of mine. I think that I am finally on the brink of arriving at that point after all these years and trials. Thank you Lord.
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