For a very long period of my life, I labored under the assumption that I was not good "enough" and coming from a very self-reliant stiff upper lip family, I proceeded to endeavor to earn love and to be "good enough". In relation to my Christian views the standards included the Ten Commandments and those over 600 laws in the Bible. Clearly no matter how hard I wanted to, I was not ever good "enough". And for a number of years, that belief actually kept me from joining a church. I finally got over that one, inspired by the birth of my daughter. I wanted her to have the good parts of what I had as a child. She was certainly "good enough".
Funny thing happened. As I was motivated to serve my child, guess who grew? Me of course. Reading books,even the Bible without Christian Fellowship (especially including small group study and bonds) is like planting a good seed in good soil and then not watering it or exposing it to the sun. I still struggled with issues I kept hidden. And I was frankly operating from some wounds I never even knew which fed my sense that I wasn't good enough.
AH HA moment!!! I am not good enough, but the GRACE of my Savior IS sufficient. Now that IS the GOOD NEWS. For flaws and all, HE loves me. And the more I let that sink into my heart the easier it becomes to trust his will in my life. I have always been a truth seeker and now joining that with grace, I am healing from the inside out and though in the earthly I face some daunting challenges...in my soul I trust God is in charge and will work ALL things to the good. He can move mountains, and I have the shovel. Yes my darling FB peeps, this is a PRAISE. While I am at it let me thank YOU for also loving me, flaws and all. It's a LOVE thing.
Funny thing happened. As I was motivated to serve my child, guess who grew? Me of course. Reading books,even the Bible without Christian Fellowship (especially including small group study and bonds) is like planting a good seed in good soil and then not watering it or exposing it to the sun. I still struggled with issues I kept hidden. And I was frankly operating from some wounds I never even knew which fed my sense that I wasn't good enough.
AH HA moment!!! I am not good enough, but the GRACE of my Savior IS sufficient. Now that IS the GOOD NEWS. For flaws and all, HE loves me. And the more I let that sink into my heart the easier it becomes to trust his will in my life. I have always been a truth seeker and now joining that with grace, I am healing from the inside out and though in the earthly I face some daunting challenges...in my soul I trust God is in charge and will work ALL things to the good. He can move mountains, and I have the shovel. Yes my darling FB peeps, this is a PRAISE. While I am at it let me thank YOU for also loving me, flaws and all. It's a LOVE thing.
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